We Don't Deserve This

Over lunch today I went home for a bit and ended up watching an episode of 8 Simple Rules. It was the episode where the dad had just passed away. The entire episode was really emotional, but one line from the show really struck me and made me think over an idea I have always had. The idea that we always get what we deserve (good or bad). Pretty much the grandpa was saying that if we all got what we deserved, we probably wouldn't have all the blessing we have. I guess I've never thought of it like this. Ever since Ava passed away I have been blaming myself and thinking that I must be paying for my past mistakes. But after hearing that, I thought maybe he is right. Some of the things that happen in life just happen. There is no rhyme or reason, it just happens. It can happen to anyone too and at anytime. It's kind of a scary thought, but for a moment when I heard him say that, I actually thought all of this wasn't my fault and I didn't need to keep this heavy burden on my shoulders. Don't get me wrong; I think if you do good, good will come back to you at some point, but when the bad comes, sometimes it has nothing to do with you or the good/bad things you have done. This idea isn't really "romantic" in the sense that it doesn't wrap every life circumstance up into a pretty little bow, but it sure as hell made me breathe slightly easier for the time I was watching that. So to all those people who say that everything happens for a reason or that people will get what they deserve, I really don't agree. Certain things happen just because and there isn't an explanation at all. While that isn't very comforting to most people, it helps me get through the here and now.