Beautiful Baby Boy

Well, I know it's been quite some time since I last posted but a lot has happened. My wonderful husband and I found out in mid July of 2012 that we were pregnant again and I am happy to say that we now have a beautiful and healthy baby boy! We welcomed our little man in early March and he is just the most amazing miracle; we really are very lucky to have him here with us and we couldn't be happier! The pregnancy actually went pretty smoothly (just a few weeks of bed rest at the very end). I was of course a wreck the entire time, but that was pretty much expected. It's amazing how past experiences can really affect everything that happens from that point on. Appointments were filled with anxiety every time and it really tested our strength. I can remember preparing myself for not hearing his heart beat each time to save myself from being blind sided like we were with Ava. It was like one messed up mind game every time we went in, but I'd do it over and over again in order to have him here with us! My husband was (as always) my rock throughout the entire pregnancy and birth. It's crazy how moments like that brought us so much closer together and made our relationship so much stronger. I 100% could not have done it without him and I hope I let him know how perfect he truly is. I could not ask for a better partner; he is and always will be my heart and my best friend.

Although the past year and a half has been harder than I could have ever imagined, I feel so much stronger and truly happier. There are definitely moments that I miss her so much it physically hurts, but I just look in the eyes of our son and realize how blessed we are to have him and to have a big sister that gets to watch over him from Heaven. The day will come when we tell him about her and I think I've reached the point where it won't hurt as bad  to talk about her and what happened. I love both my children so very much and look forward to every moment I have on Earth with our sweet boy until the day I will meet our Ava in Heaven.