Rough Day

Well, after a rough Easter day I was really hoping to have a better week but haven't had much luck with that so far. I will say it was nice to be able to work from home today and spend time with my hubby. I truly am very thankful for that because my husband has this great way of calming me down and putting me at ease. But the rest of this week has just been rough. Work isn't a lot of fun right now and AF is about to rear her ugly head once again and it just feels like a failure every time this miserable little friend decides to visit. Even if you aren't trying to get pregnant after a loss, having AF show up is just one big slap in the face. I mean, I shouldn't even have to deal with it because I should still be pregnant. I should be doing all the things that pregnant women get to do (especially those that are in the home stretch like I would have been) but instead I have to over think EVERY little sensation I have and think "maybe this is a sign I'm pregnant" only to be knocked down by the fact that it clearly isn't. I understand that any woman who is TTC has a rough time every month, but trying after a loss is just a whole lot of crap (those who are TTCAL will understand where I am coming from on this). On top of it my husband got some weird schedule at work that will most likely keep us from being together for the next month. I know it's only a month and I should be happy that on a regular basis we get to be together, but I'm having a crappy week and it's just hard to see that. I guess there wasn't much of a point in posting this, but sometimes it just helps to vent. Thanks for listening and to you other loss mamas, I hope your week is going well.